February192013
so last night laying in bed listening to my iPod i had wondered what my bf sounds like when he sings. listening to goo goo dolls, to matchbox twenty to life house i’m stuck in a mystery. i then had a dream about it. dont remember the song but his voice was so beautiful. i swear last night our minds where in sync because he told me he wants me to hear him sing. like how did he know!?!? lol i so cannot wait to see him friday and hear him! he is so amazingly perfect! tall dark hair, green eyes, passionate, caring, adorable, handsome, avid hockey and nascar fan, can sing. how did i get so lucky? :) all i know is when i look at him everytime where together i see my future in his eyes (:
February12013
well a new month.
havent been doing what i said i was going to do…oops lol.
i’ve got nothing else to say tonight. i did have something to write but it disappeared from my mind. damn it oh well lol
January262013
I know what i wrote to jason will possibly leave him speechless but i do it’ll make him smile. He is my life. And i love him dearly
January232013
this valentines’s day instead of the usual card and chocolate and stuffed animals here is a story for you to read. i hope you enjoy it. i love you :)
since being a little girl i’ve always dreamt of finding my prince charming and living that happy ever after. watching so many disney movies i always thought that’s how the real world would be. as i got older honestly that feeling started to diminish. heartbreak after heartbreak i really began to believe fairy tales weren’t true. that is until i met you. that october day you messaged me and to this day i still wish i had saved it. we started talking, messaging back and forth. you did give me your number and i hesitated to text you. but i decided to give it a shot and see where it would go. little did we both know it would get to where we are now. so we kept talking and finally decided to make a date to meet. for the first time in awhile i was actually excited about meeting someone. walking around the mall waiting for you i starting getting nervous and asking myself questions. “will he like me?” etc. so many things going through my mind but the only thing i told myself was just to be me and nothing else. to this day i will never forget it. you were walking around the mens section and i knew it was you automatically from the description you gave me. (i almost did a 180 and walked the other way. i couldn’t believe we were seconds away from meeting. my heart was racing. the most nervous i’ve ever been. then it happened approaching you i could feel a big smile on my face. seeing pictures of you online didnt serve you justice. in other words you were way more handsome in person. then, our first hug, first embrace. it felt wonderful. your voice was sweet and gentle. i fell into a slight daze not believing this was happening and that i was dreaming. but i had to wake up from that daze quickly. your scent was so intoxicating. i knew that day was going to be a fun day. heading up to the movie a warm rush came over me when you touch my wrist and asked about my bracelet. i never thought i’d meet someone that enjoyed cartoon and disney movies as i do. getting into the theater i wasnt sure how that would play out. if we’d get right into cuddling or if we would just sit there. but i decided to make the first move. cuddling beside you felt amazing. i didnt want to jump ahead of myself but i knew there was something different about you apart from other guys I’ve been with. but it was definitely a good thing. i enjoyed the movie so much with you. i knew we wouldnt have much time together that afternoon and i didnt want it to end. walking around the park with you was magical. feeling your hand take mine it was all to dreamy to be real. standing under the willow tree (our willow tree) i really didnt want the day to end. i honestly wasnt expecting any kissing so our very first kiss in my mind blew me away. feeling your lips against mine i almost didnt want to stop but i didnt want to feel like desperate. i enjoyed that day so much. then it went down a little when you told me you wanted to see me everyday and i told you i cant compete with that because of work. and that upset you and i thought that that was the end. after not talking for a day or so you couldnt leave my mind. hearing back from you brighten my day. but we worked things out and we started getting closer. our first night alone together another wonderful memory i will never forget. cuddling with you and sharing kisses i felt like i was in a different world. our intimacy grew stronger and we couldnt contain ourselves. that first time with you was so i dont even know how to describe it. and when i didn’t accept you the 2nd time it wasnt because i didnt want it because i definitely did i didnt want to rush to much. every time leaving you kept getting harder and harder. kissing you and making love to you more and more i never wanted to leave your side. i felt safe and protected with you. i never felt that with any one else. in so few months i’ve never grown so attached to someone. i kept telling myself not to jump to future ideas but every time i looked at you i knew i did want to spend the rest of my life with you. everytime we talked about moving in together the more and more i wanted it to happen and i pictured it and i still do everyday. just the thought of waking up by your side every morning and being your last kiss goodnight my heart leapt. you had mentioned tennessee and whatnot awhile ago but i didnt think much of it because you kept talking about looking forward to moving in together and summer etc. i erased that from my mind. until you brought it up again. that day you told me you may or may not move to tennessee at the end of the summer i couldnt control my tears. just the thought of never seeing you again saddened me a lot. i knew it was your life that you had to think about and i did a lot of thinking and letting it all sink in. it did feel good talking about it i know i still have to keep it in mind. i know it saddened you because it is a big decision to make, leaving your family and friends and possibly loosing what we had started to create. i don’t know what went through your mind but that night reading your text message saying you deleted your myyearbook account you met me and i was the one you wanted. you left me speechless. a complete loss for words. but then the more i thought about it the more it made me smile. because everything you’ve said in previous messages i knew you meant every word, and that you weren’t saying them just to please me etc. you said them with your heart. i’m still speechless somedays that we are here where we are now. you brought my believing in fairy tales back into reality. You are my prince charming, my happy ever after. being with you at the zoo was one of the best days ive ever shared with you. sitting in your car talking just made it even better. when you said i could go with you to tennessee if you were to move i know it is a big choice i have to make. but honestly i would say yes. if i didnt move with you that basically saying i dont want to be with you for a long time. but i do. more than ever. by your side, everyday. what better way to start a fresh new life than with you. Jason, i love you more than anything. hearing you say i love you melted my soul. you said it, you mean it and every time we’re together you show it. i’ve never cared so much for someone so soon but i do know i feel there was a reason we met. it was meant to be. you an i. you mean so much to me and over time i hope to show you each and every day just how much you mean to me.
January182013
“We all have stories we’re living and telling ourselves. - Bruce Springsteen”
January92013
So im starting to think of something to write for my love on valentines day. My 1st year actually having a special man in my life to share february 14th with. Ive got pretty much an entire month to think about it. Wish me luck!! Will post anything i come up with in the process of getting it perfect.
January62013
so happy hockey will be coming back! um not much else going on today. it’s sunday a day of rest. hope i’ll have more interesting things to post this week
have a nice sunday everyone!
January52013
12 hours of sleep and a slight cold oh joy! Lol not really luckily im off this weekend to relax although would love to see Jason but will have to wait until next weekend. Thats ok :) because i know hes not going anywhere and neither am i. Im so happy we found each other <3 and as of this summer/fall we will be planning on moving in together :) saving up for a car now and as soon as i do get ine ill be looking into jobs outside of RI in MA. Life is going amazing for me :).
January42013
Bad night of sleep. Top it off getting a cold. Hopefully not as bad as the last time it hit me like a sack of bricks. I just dont want to be sick… Period. It happens though.
